what I wanted to be, though not all at the same time

popular, pretty, smart, slender, athletic, unique, thoughtful, kind, practical, comfortable, intelligent, funny, wise, at ease, talented, stylish, bohemian, carefree, happy, understanding, interesting, modest, professional, artistic, casual, friendly, musical, healthy, respected, well-read, well-fed, well-housed, well-financed, well-loved.